Constant regret and pain . He now know about it and wants to end our marriage of 4 years. I've got twice the appetite and half the energy. Out loud, we weigh the facts: I have my schooling, Id lose my position of junior teacher if I dont do the teacher training program, thus losing the ability to become a head teacher one day. I still was no where near ready for how much my life would have to change. This hurts me down to my soul. I have searching for someone going through what Im going through but I have yet to find it. What you did in your life is your history and your past and whatever you choose to share with your husband, or what he found out on his own, is a privilege; it is your truth and what he knows of that, he should consider as an honor, because it is your unique story to tell. When I first find out I was shocked because it was unplanned and I know he doesnt want a baby yet he said he is not ready and me either but deep down I dont want to do this at all and i wanna see that cute little face:(( We agreed to do abortion. I didn't know you, but I loved you. Regardless of the decision you make its a life long one so be very sure. Thank you for your sorry. How first and my first. Im not financially free..and my boyfriend said he will literally kill me if I decide to keep the baby. Im afraid that in a few years I wont be able to based on my cervical health. I have never cried to hard in my life. I go to sleep the same way I have every night since I found out about you: heartbroken and tearful. And He chose me to teach you about LOVE! Its been two years since my abortion and I always think about that little heart beat. Mom's Letter to Baby During Pregnancy A Letter to My Unborn Baby: Here's What I Promise You September 25, 2017 by Laura Marie Meyers Dear Baby, There are still a few months until we. It ruins our relationship badly as we are both regretting the biggest mistake we made in our lives. She comes to me in my dreams at least once a week. Iv never felt worse in my whole life. I was able to get another teaching job back in our home state, and have been teaching for years. It has the potential to work, but like you said, doesnt make sense no matter how hard you look at it. Dont worry though youre not pregnant!. We have only been together 8 months though. A mother is a protector but I couldnt, I killed my unborn. I pray one day my baby will cone back to me. 2. My daughter was only 800g when she was born, stayed in NICU for 3 month. I would do things so differently. But in reality I know who the dad was because of what had happened on the night we spent together but it did not help my decision as I felt so ashamed. The month before was the most emotionally and physically exhausting of my life. Labor would begin, usually within 12 hours, and the baby would be expelled. I felt like death every day sometimes unable to stay out longer than 2 hours outside. Just my thoughts ?? . Then, my eyes glued to the test as if it were revealing to me the secrets of the universe, I stared. Thank you for sharing your story, and Im sure I can get a counseling session to finally put my mind at ease once I finally have it done. Keep the faith, you are not alone . Because I was born, because I can talk and breathe air and because you can visibly see me in front of your face, I had the "right" to take my first baby's life away. I cant imagine what I would have done if I wasnt able to have an abortion. Im currently in the exact situation. All I could say was 'I'm sorry, I'm sorry, baby, I'm sorry.' As a mother, you never, ever, ever forget. I literally cry every moment I think of aborting it. I have so much pain and hurt in my heart. I just dont know what to do!!! I realize this is an odd place to share this information, and I am in a much different situation now, but several years ago my partner and I struggled through severe male factor infertility when TTC my youngest. If you know you arent ready for this trust yourself. My mother killed me. Guess what? A part of me knows there are logistical & rational reasons why we should not have another & honestly those out number the reasons we should but yet I still want my baby. Im mad as hell (still) that we took steps responsible steps steps that have to be repeated! I m 21 years old and just find out that I m pragnant for 2-3 weeks. I like the word dad because Father is in Heaven. Making an impassioned plea to her mother to not abort her, she shares her hopes and fears with the woman who can control whether she lives or dies. We started trying, but didnt expect it to come so soon. I feel like its hard to find forums where women arent either all regret or all confidant/fine with their decision. However, I was quite blue that I was no longer pregnant and I actually experienced a bit of anger as the situation brought up unpleasant feelings from the past. So many of the feelings you described in your post match mine, and as I read, I finally felt something other than alone. Thank you again. Thats the last burrito hell ever order without any major care in the world. Unborn Child's letter to Mom !!! Just like you, I too was in university. I didnt touch you, but I felt you. After I check in, I have to take another urine test. An Honest Letter About Abortion. Hi. I never knew if I wanted kids or not or if Id make a good mother. Thank you. I was literally petrified and afraid that no matter what I tried to do, what if I couldnt get it all in order before my baby got here? From the moment on, he has told me to get an abortion, that its not the time. In my mind, Ive raised a child on my own, and even with all the struggles, raising her has been the most rewarding experience ever. My partner abandoned me and I had no money. Would adoption be something you could manage? (Sense my sarcasm, little one.) I want the baby, and he says not yet. He tosses me the plastic bag with my burrito and chips (along with several containers of salsa that I didnt ask for but he knows me well enough to bring them anyway), and asks, with little emotion, Whats wrong? I sit down and ask him to sit too, and he does so, across the room. I have an ultrasound which tells me you are a five-week-and-two-day-old single embryo. Please give me some advice Im so lost right now. I am with someone now and he is lovely. Hello Mommy, this is me, your baby- When you make this list of pros and cons, I think it will help you understand the reality. I too, am at the beginning of my career and am receiving more opportunities to advance as well but I have a long way to go. I always imagine what he or she would have looked like and I feel I failed my child. I always wanted to be a mum I adore children but back then I couldnt keep it . My little sister just found out she is pregnant and I am happy for her but I just cant help being sad that I didnt get to know my baby and see him/her grow and I may never get that chance again ( was told it wouldnt be easy to get pregnant to begin with) that baby could very well be my first and only. I immediately was overcome with fear! This brought me to tears. You were crying, but I was dealing with the most pain of all. Maybe they never will. The article reappeared in 1980, and was turned into a song in 2005. . I also feel like taking that risk, that my baby is worth the sacrifice. I recently experienced my first pregnancy, at 19 years of age and with four years of nursing school ahead of me. God will see you through. When I told him I was pregnant the first thing he said is lets get a chicken sandwhich. Massachusetts Democrat told to resign after abortion remarks leave parents irate. Now, Im regretting every single day of my life. Dear Reverend (name), It is not without much time and thought that I have decided to address myself to you. Me and my boyfriend were going steady and were a couple but we were very young, both of us college freshmen. I want my baby so much but my family are pushing for a termination as I should be having a child when the timing is right. Im struggling with this right now. I have three healthy children 21,17 and 13 from a previous marriage. Cry Of An Unborn Child by Gabrielle Kruger - Family Friend Poems. I was 17 yrs old when I got pregnant, At that age I was not ready, alot of expectations from my parents await me plus the fact that I got pregnant by the person I dont love.so Ive decided to abort it by means of massage. The worse I got the more my boyfriend managed to show up and take care of me. There are so many things I am looking forward to, and I can't wait to be held in your arms and taught by the very best mama I can think of! And draw pictures, made especially for you. She tells me, You dont have to do this. I have seen many of my patients go through something similar and it is never easy. I feel manipulated and trapped. Weve trien for 8 yeats now and decided that if I turned 30 which is Dec of this year and I am not pregnant, we will give up. After a further 2 weeks things started to settle down. Hey, came across this after searching for something to resonate with how I feel. I got pregnant from one night with a guy that I went on a few dates with. Im 29 and each partner Ive been with had children outside of me after we ended our relationship. They are a group of loving people who have been in your position. April S., New Jersey. This story is so touching and Im thankful to have come across it. Im already a mom and I love my daughter more then anything. I have images that its the same as trying to kill one of my current children. SUBSCRIBE: $1 for 3 months. Love you lots!!! I feel she was a girl. Im 33. Then I panicked more I hadnt even thought about how I had a choice to make, and how this didnt only involve me, it involved your dad, too. The situation was messy and It all feels like a blur now. Letter to My Child - Abortion Memorial What is the Abortion Memorial? Im a mother to 5 boys.. 2 from my previous marriage that I share 50/50 custody of and 3 littles that are with me 24/7. I am thinking of you xx. We talked all weekend, tried finding ways to make it work but we both knew it wasnt the time because of so many factors, the big ones being my health and finances. On the way to the apartment he called and asked if I was hungry. I had an abortion two years ago and I regret it in some ways, but in others I am massively grateful I did it. I'm sorry Mamma, you couldn't eat and was having nausea. I felt very depressed after I let you go - many days were hard to face, some I didn't. I told myself it was hormones. And I don't need a room filled with toys. I had an abortion 6 years ago at 41 years old and was the one and only time to have a child I always wanted. Your story sounds exactly like my own. This poem represents the voice of an unborn child pleading for its life. I had a disease that I didnt know about that affected the baby because of my bloodstream. I want to keep the baby but then i feel like maybe i should get an abortion and give myself this chance to truly start over and fresh and cut ties with him other than coparenting. There might be days when I'm a bit naughty I found your post when I was idly googling if I ever was a mother too and Im sitting here and crying. Im not mad at you anymore. I swallow hard several times until the pill burrows into the back of my throat like a rock. I havent gotten pregnant the last 2 years since being off birth control and we already have two children as it is. If it makes you feel any better, abortion is highly unlikely to affect your future fertility equally though Im missing my baby a lot. Also it will definitely be detrimental to my relationship with my husband. I havent gone one day without thinking of it and causing major heartache, especially as family members and friend have now kids. I had one almost six years ago and I still cry about it. We wouldnt. So please mommy, don't let me down. no one is on my side. My younger half sister is also pregnant with a girl which I always thought I would have. Top human rights organizations are calling on the United Nations to intervene over the destruction of abortion rights in the US.. It breaks my heart to know that the only two times Ive been pregnant ended with me terminating. I want this baby, but I know financially we wouldnt be able to afford it. He wants me to get an abortion, but I just dont think I can do it. Its what he wants. I lost my baby in August. But I do not regret it. Just a few days before my 22nd birthday. Ive imagined names and what he would look like. In the last twenty minutes of my lunch break, I walked to Walgreens and bought the test thinking the employees must assume Im really irresponsible (I guess I was?). Mothers should never be bored of their children. I was 5 weeks. I love this man but i dont want a baby now and i feel the worst human being in this world for thinking that way. All the best to you <3. Thank you for this. The dad and I literally talked about having another baby one day but we didnt know it would happen so fast. I hear you and Im there for you. I think Ill visit an abortion clinic to avail of a medical abortion service because its difficult for me to survive if I have a child. It took almost 6 months and I delivered my poor child.. It's just cruel." And, I dont know If I ever would have met my husband of now and not really sure of he would stick around with me having a kid from somebody else but regrets are one of the worst thing that you go though when you make a decision like this. We were told if we wanted children we would have to make a concerned effort. I took a test when i got home from work and sure enough i was. I was 14 weeks with two boys already. It also makes me proud to know that I was conceived out of love. .. thank you so much for this. Luckily I was able to talk to my partner who was incredibly supportive but there were so many reasons for this not being the right time for us. How are you coping? I was very confused. I just wanted to let you know that the decision I made was very painful and still hurts at times but that it does get easier especially if you know you made it for the right reasons. My boy ( yes, For some crazy reason at that time, I wanted to find out the sex of the baby through the blood test they do to check chromosomes and it was a boy) would be 7 years old. I pray for all of you. Marni Fults. One day you will be an amazing mum, dont doubt that! Thats the last burrito hell ever order without any major care in the world, I think to myself. I am actually praying that it . I was one l with you. I hoped the pain and loss in my gut would fade away over time but it hasnt. I am now 48 and very much regret it and really dont know how to go on, but somehow we must. He doesnt want to start over and says that we are too old. My daughter will be three next month and I just found out that Im pregnant. God has forgiven you and you should try and forgive yourself. Fathers should never be bored of their children. I was 6 weeks when I went for an ultrasound .. and all I saw was a small blob that I referred to as my nugget. I knew she hurt for me too. I feel that it was indeed the best decision for me but Im so emotionally torn that i feel horrible for doing it i was also about 5 weeks . How do you know? I pull out the test and show him the two pink lines. I am 40 and do not want another child with my husband because he is not supportive at all. I didnt want to be, but I had a hard time standing up to him and saying no for myself. That is a beautiful thought and may have helped me make my decision . Now, faced with having one in our early 40s is terrifying. I dont know where Im going to go or how Im going to make this work but Im terrified. This is me right now,I dont know what to do its so hard. It means so much to see it spoken by another. purchasing sperm from a donor, via a cryobank This was with the same toxic individual that I got pregnant the first time with . There arent any protesters out that day and Im grateful. Thank you for writing this. Am I selfish for bringing our baby into this world? And then I blurt out, without any grace, and much louder than I intend, Im pregnant. His eyes get wide as frisbees and he says, Wait. Im stressed and feel so alone. I cry all the time and I dont think Ill ever stop. My boyfriend says I should abort it. I recently just had my second abortion in 9 months . I'm just a tiny someone, Up to this moment Im still thinking of her, asking God and her for forgiveness. I was 5 weeks and didnt know it. A local democratic official in Framingham, Massachusetts is under fire for comments made about babies born with . Struggling with the decision I made. I pray for you, and your baby. Thank you for sharing your story, I made a promise to myself my decision was not in vain and Im almost done with my bachelors degree. Both in you, as a memory, and in heaven as a person, for eternity. I wish this was easier. Sending love to all of you going through this situation . Anyway. Financially we are already tight. Not because I want to but because I feel I HAVE to. At times I couldnt walk, couldnt eat, loss 9 pounds in one week, shortness of breath and felt like I was having a heart attack. He estimates that over 500 babies have been saved because of his efforts in utilizing the aforementioned piece. I didnt want anyone in the world to have my baby, I didnt want the guy that knocked me up to have my baby and I also felt a little pushed by his mother to have the abortion so instead of keeping him or her for myself I killed my baby. I feel alone, abandoned & ashamed that I have to make this decision. I think about you so often and wish so badly I could turn back time. We just dont know what we actually want, since we decided to not have children. I am 18 and got an abortion 4 weeks ago. He walks into the front room while I am mid-stand, so thats how I greet him. I now have learnt something new about myself i will absolutely love to be a mother one day. Im balling my eyes out googling help topics because I miss her so much. If your willing to share that is. You were my everything. I was very sad.! I instantly thought about abortion and although I was afraid Id regret it I went ahead and scheduled the appointment. Im not ready for kids. When parents choose to terminate a pregnancy because of severe medical conditions in the baby, the medical procedure is technically a second-trimester abortion or a "late-term" abortionand it is technically elective because parents can choose whether to let nature take its course or to end the pregnancy. The emotions you displayed in this article made me cry because it is exactly how I feel. Little Thing, I want you to be happy. I was promoted to junior teacher two weeks ago. But no one talks about it. I want to experience the excitement of my first day at school ??. I know the abortion has made me realise how much of an amazing mum I am going to be but I am also so desperate to be a mummy and the loss in my gut cant be put into words. During that time, I had to learn a lot about our choices were, and I didnt want to scroll past your comment without sharing some of that knowledge. I need to get a surgical abortion on Monday and he cant even decide if he wants to come and support me. Im 18 and also 6 weeks pregnant and my boyfriend says I have to abort it. To this day I cry in memory of the child that could have been. Please please please pray for us so that my darling would come back to me. I am so sad that I will never meet that child, but I also know that it would have been less than what we all deserved. I loved you, my first, my only.. Have you done it? It resonates and although Im still very sad, makes me feel more peaceful. Share your story, thoughts, and prayers in words, pictures, or video. I knew that if I went in for an ultrasound and saw features on that monitor.. there was no way I could go through with it. Says he can no longer trust me as I betrayed him for the past 10 years. I know I made the right decision but Im feeling really bad and sad right now. These letters are an appeal to all who read them to choose life. Praying for all of you and I know now every situation is so different. You don't know me yet, I'm only a few weeks old. 30 years old , Im pregnant now. Just like our loved ones that preceded us. And because I am one, I made the right decision. I dont have the financial capability to take care of a child. Remorse Is Forever By I just went through having to make a decision as well. My husband and i split up a few months ago but have been seeing eachother on and off during that time. Ive been sobbing and my drive home I kept apologizing outloud for what I had just done. That is my "right." When we want our baby in womb then it is a baby. A judge can excuse you from this requirement. You'll be grateful in eternity! It breaks my heart everyday because I didnt really want to get rid of my baby I loved her ( felt she was a girl ), had a name picked out, went to multiple scans ( still got pictures ) .Today is a year since my surgery and I grieve her everyday I regret it .